Short Stories
A Kiss for Gertrude
By
Harold O. Wilson
The room is a single-bed dorm room in a redbrick building
constructed before the Civil War. It is hot and musty and smells of
age and decay. Thurmond Roydal crosses the room and lifts a black
and white promotional photograph of Gertrude Lawrence from his
dresser. He studies the woman’s features for a moment then gently
traces the outline of her face with his fingers. Her look is
withdrawn and distant. A highlight on her lower lip expresses its
contour and contributes to this appearance of melancholy. On her
mouth, the dried smudge of a kiss soils the glass, then there is
another, partial, overlaying the first. Clearly visible, each kiss
is a translucent whitish stain hovering above the image.
With the thumb of his right hand Thurmond smears the marks on the
glass and places the picture back on the dresser. He takes up his
coat, pulls a thin Latin text from a stack of books on his desk,
slides it into his pocket and leaves the room. It is Saturday
morning December 7, 1958 and the campus of Price College is quiet.
On the pattern of brick walkways that unite the college buildings,
Thurmond meets only one other student. Hunched against the winter
cold, her books clutched to her chest, she approaches and passes
nodding a perfunctory greeting. Thurmond mumbles an acknowledgement,
glances at her face and presses on toward the Malcolm Heath Language
Arts Building and his meeting with Dr. John Ballack. A light snow is
falling.
Founded by Dorgan Price in 1834, Price College believes itself to be
an intellectual enclave called to cast out ignorance from the
northwest Georgia farm country. Thurmond believes it to be a
desert—dry and sterile in its physical and intellectual isolation.
Set in a dusty rural town, its physical plant is enclosed by a low
rock wall on its north and south sides and along its back. In the
front, the wall follows a convex curve, the apogee of which is
broken by a stone archway that provides entry to the campus from the
east. “Price College, Pro Deo
et Ecclesia, 1834” is carved on a polished granite slab across
the top of the arch. Constrained by a religious fundamentalism which
it struggles periodically to reach beyond, the intellectual life of
Price College has never been able to transcend the motto cut in
stone above its door.
Thurmond stops now before the Heath building and turns to face the
front of the chapel. With its white spire and six columns, it
dominates the college. A protective and guiding father standing over
the seven academic buildings arrayed before it, the chapel regulates
the physical, academic and moral life of the institution. It
represents everything Thurmond hates about the school; the arrogance
of its certitude, the deceit of its hypocrisy and the smugness of
its intellectual security peck at his own self-assurance with an
uneasy persistence. The Georgian architecture strikes him as too
austere and the compulsory chapel services each Wednesday he finds
intrusive as well as dull and uninspiring. On this December morning,
obscure and confident, it faces him through the shroud of falling
snow. Its brick walkways
arrayed like tentacles reach to draw him in and its six white
columns are set like bared teeth in a wide gaping mouth. Thurmond
fingers the Latin text in his coat pocket, backs up the first two
steps of the Heath building then turns and bounds up to the landing
and through the great oak entrance door.
The interior of the building is stifling hot, oppressive. Thurmond
crosses the foyer and removes his coat. He drags his fingers
thumping along the wainscoting as he walks down the empty middle
corridor. On his left he mounts the stairway leading to the second
floor and takes the steps two at a time. Halfway down the second
floor corridor he stops at a partially opened door marked Johann
Wolfgang Ballack, Ph.D., Classical Languages. Thurmond knocks as he
enters. Seated behind his desk, Dr. Ballack gestures for Thurmond to
take a seat. “Read, Mr. Roydal,” he says, “Read.”
Thurmond drapes his coat across the arm of his chair and takes his
text from its pocket. “Ipse
loco medius rerum novitate paventem,” he reads, “Sol
oculis iuvenem, quibus adspicit omnia, vidit— ”
“No, no, Mr. Roydal, in English. In English. Translate,” Dr.
Ballack says. He leans back in his chair and rests his arms across
his chest. In his mid sixties, John Ballack does not look like a man
who has spent his life pouring over obscure texts in dusty stacks or
wandering in the maze of academia. He is a large man, heavy, with a
gray complexion and generous silverwhite hair that he slicks down
and combs straight back. Even though it is Saturday he has covered
his ample frame in a dark three piece suit set off by a purple tie
and matching handkerchief. His vest is buttoned tight across his
chest. Unmoving, his arms
resting now across his stomach, his gray fingers laced on the black
fabric, John Ballack resembles a stolid glistening stone, smoothed
and polished to a high sheen.
Thurmond closes his text and looks at the man across the
desk. “And From their center,”
he begins again,
“The all-seeing Sun saw this young man, who trembled / At all the
strangeness. ‘Phaethon,’ he said, / Why have you come here to this
highest of dwellings?/ What do you seek, O Phaethon, my son?/
Without doubt my son?’ And the boy answered: / ‘O common light of
the great universe, / Phoebus, my father, if I have the right / To
use that name, and my mother is not lying / To hide some guilt with
false pretense, / Give me proof my father, so people will believe
me, / Know me for what I am and free my mind / from doubting!’”
“Beautiful, Mr. Roydal,” John Ballack says. “Very
impressive,… particularly for a freshman. Is the translation yours
or have you simply memorized someone else’s?” John Ballack’s
eyebrows lift slightly and he nods his head a little to the right
which Thurmond sees as incredulity.
“With some help from Humphries the translation is mine,” Thurmond
says, “then I memorized it.”
“Come, Mr. Roydal, all of
Metamorphoses?” John
Ballack is still leaning back in his chair. The gray stone face
smiles now.
“No,” Thurmond says, “just Chapter II.”
“You do amaze me, Mr. Roydal. You read Latin like a scholar
and yet you are failing in all your other classes except theatre.
You help students with their calculus, yet you are failing in math.
You help students with their themes, yet you are failing English.
And it is the same in history…. Is there an explanation, Mr.
Roydal?” John Ballack
is leaning forward now. He fingers a small gold scale on his desk
and the great stone face is concerned. The best Latin student he has
had in his thirty-five years of teaching and he is on the verge of
losing him. Thirty-five years of teaching a dead language to dead
students in a department now teetering on the edge of extinction and
the one student who makes the language live, who has the power to
reawaken its vitality within Ballack himself will be expelled at the
end of the semester or at least, if there is no change at the end of
the school year.
All this Thurmond reads in the troubled stone face. But he has no
answer. He cannot help Johann Wolfgang Ballack.
*
John Ballack sees the end of his career.
He knows he is being gently
eased out and it is not the way he expected to finish. He admits to
himself that his interest in the language, his desire to teach has
been drying up for years now. The stony demeanor he projects is only
a veneer to protect the fragility of his self confidence. He is
convinced there is nothing he can do now to stop his disintegration.
His Latin classes are crumbling beneath him; there were only
five students in his advanced class and no one signed up for
beginning Latin this semester.
Old Dr. Morris in Greek was forced out last year and Ballack
was given the three students who remained.
Then the inevitable, a young hotshot Ph.D. from Yale is hired
for next year to enliven, no, to resurrect the Department—like
Lazarus, raise it from the dead was the phrase the dean used. And
now, in the midst of the decay, Thurmond has rekindled in him the
excitement and beauty of the language, stirred in him again the
desire to discover and to teach. But John Ballack does not
completely embrace this new found energy. His mind tells him there
is something of a threat in this strange boy, something unsettling
in the nervous enthusiasm Thurmond brings into Ballack’s graveyard
of the classics.
John Ballack is egotistical enough to believe he has made a
contribution to the academic world of Latin and Greek. His countless
articles and presentations at prestigious classical language
symposia, his three university textbooks written with a colleague
from Wisconsin, two in Latin and one in Greek, did lead for a time
to the guarded deference expected from colleagues in the field. Now
invitations are few, publications almost nonexistent and he knows he
is coasting to a close. It has been smooth and easy, his time at
Price. In fact, John Ballack has never done anything untold or
exceptional in his life, not in his classroom and not in his private
life. He attends chapel and church regularly, married well and
raised three children who are successful. He mourned appropriately
and received with grace the condolences of his friends and
colleagues when his wife died of cancer, accepted their casseroles
and dinner invitations with magnanimity and would have melted away
at Price College if it had not been for Thurmond Roydal.
John Ballack is fidgeting with the gold balance now and he notices
Thurmond watching his fingers turn the little replica one way and
then another.
“A memento?” Thurmond says.
“A gift from a student a few years back…said she found my name in a
new story by Heinrich Böll,… ‘The Balek Scale.’ My name is spelled
differently but still, there it is. I’m the villain in that story,
you know.” John Ballack sets the scale aside and leans back in his
chair. The great stone face looks tired now, resigned to something
inevitable. “Every subject except Latin and theatre, Mr. Roydal,
you’re failing every subject and there is no need. Why have you come
here,… to this place? Certainly there were other opportunities.”
Thurmond stands and turns toward the door. “My father sent me,” He
says over his shoulder. “The great
Sol Oculis, all-seeing,
all-knowing sun god who directs the affairs of the earth from a
tower in New York. He sent me. The great light of the universe
decided I should descend from Teaneck, New Jersey to this
barren…this place withered and sere that is, to paraphrase Böll in
the story you mention, more than fifty-five grams short of justice.”
Thurmond takes the doorknob in his hand, lifts his coat from the
chair, studies the great stone face for a moment then looks around
the office. “And the reason? Well, that’s becoming clear now,” he
says and passes into the corridor.
John Ballack was tired;
now he is exhausted. This young man with so much potential he finds
wearying and exhilarating at the same time.
*
The snow is still falling. The cold has deepened and the pods of the
magnolia trees have managed to capture and stockpile a few of the
flakes. Thurmond hurries along the brick walk to the library; his
eyes never leave the chapel entrance passing to his right. In the
library he meets a fellow student and spends an hour helping him
with his math. From there he descends to LongJohn’s café
in town and over lunch in
the steamy little coffee shop feeds lines to the girl who has the
lead in the student production of
Antigone.
Back in his room Thurmond shakes the droplets of water from his
coat, tosses it on the bed and takes the photograph from the
dresser. Seated at his desk, he looks across the radiator and out
his window at the chapel. It has not moved and keeps its side to
him. He studies the eyes in the photograph; they don’t look at him
but past him into some void. In these eyes, the high cheekbones and
angular chin of the woman, Thurmond feels a profound sadness. It is
as though she is locked in this cheap frame—a black and white world
controlled and dictated by others—a world fifty-five grams short of
justice. He raises the frame to his face and kisses the portrait on
the lips once and then once again. Now he turns the picture over and
traces his finger over the word he has written on the back,
“Mother.”
Thurmond places the photograph on the dresser, checks the chapel out
his window one more time, then takes out a Latin text. He translates
three pages on Stoicism from Cicero’s
De Natura Deorum then
works and reworks his translation until it sparkles. This he places
in his notebook. Next he writes a theme for English exploring the
impact of guilt and homosexuality in Tennessee Williams’ “Cat on a
Hot Tin Roof,” completes a history paper on Deism and the Founding
Fathers, then works for an hour on calculus problems. Except for
required reading, this completes his assignments for the week. He
now reviews the work he has done, makes corrections, refinements,
places it in a neat pile then deposits it in the wastebasket.
*
Wednesday morning December 11 is clear and cold. There is no snow
and the chapel stands unshrouded. The time is seven forty-five and
the bell is calling the college to morning services. Students
arriving up the brick walkways knot up at the stairs leading to the
porch then pass through the opening in the center between the six
white pillars. They disburse on the portico and make their way into
the chapel through small entry doors on either side and a large
double door in the center. Inside, there is a foyer with stairs at
either end to access the balcony. Three doors open the foyer to the
sanctuary which also serves as an auditorium. In the sanctuary
everything is white. The vaulted ceiling is white, the walls are
white with large clear-glass small-pane windows, and the three banks
of pews are white. Lighting is provided by three massive brass
chandeliers that hang from the vault over the center bank of pews.
Brass sconces between the windows supplement the light from the
chandeliers. The chancel is a raised stage. It is bare except for a
blond mahogany ambo or lectern placed at center front and a pedestal
stage right standing against the black curtain of the back wall.
On the pedestal is an urn
containing a tall monkshood plant with purplish-blue blossoms. This
is the prop for Antigone
which will be played in black tie and evening dress on an otherwise
empty stage.
The faculty takes the first three rows in the center bank of pews.
Behind them sit the freshmen, followed by the sophomores and finally
the juniors. Seniors take the remainder of the seats as they wish.
This includes the balcony. The bell ceases tolling at exactly eight
o’clock and the college chaplain takes his place at the lectern.
This is the ritual every Wednesday morning and is no exception on
this cold morning. The chaplain is Joshua Summers. He is also the
minister of the local Baptist Church which holds Sunday services in
the chapel. Summers begins with an invocation and then invites the
congregation to rise and join in the hymn of praise, “All glory
laude and honor to Thee Redeemer King.” The organ leads out from the
balcony. Following the hymn the faculty and students all sit except
for one student in the freshman section who remains standing.
Looking down at his text, Summers does not notice the student and
begins the scripture, “I have
put my spirit upon him: he shall bring forth judgment to the
Gentiles.”
“Isaiah is speaking here of our Lord Jesus Christ,…” Summers says
raising his eyes from the lectern. Aware now of the standing
student, he nods, says, “Please be seated,” and turns back to his
text. The student does not move. A soft murmur and shuffling like
the low hum of bees rises from among the seated students and floats
across the sanctuary. Faculty members shift in their pews to look at
the cause of the disturbance. A student crosses the stage and slides
a note onto the lectern. “Mr. Roydal,” Summers says, please take
your seat so we can proceed.” Instead of sitting down, Thurmond
turns his back on the chaplain and facing the student body, loosely
crosses his arms on his chest. “Mr. Roydal, please. We can’t proceed
until you’ve taken your seat,” Summers says.
Thurmond hears the chaplain but does not listen. He hears the
murmuring, feels the shuffling growing in insistence but still does
not move. In truth, he is scared to death, but he could not sit down
now if he wanted to. He is held up by something more than himself.
He looks at the students and what he sees is a wall of white faces,
arrogant, certain in their privilege, confident in the superiority
of their race, their class. Individually the faces are not uniform;
they are pink, red, gray, in varying shades. Still for all that,
they are all white. In the kitchen and dining hall Thurmond knows
black faces, a black face cleans his room and talks to him about her
family, black faces rake leaves, remove snow, pick up the campus.
But in the squirming, restless mass before him and in the pews at
his back, there are only white faces, smug in the knowledge of their
dominance and power. The morning sun is cracking through the chapel
windows now, ricocheting off the walls in head splitting shafts of
brilliance. Thurmond is sweating; the bigotry, the mind numbing
ideology, and the assured authority of the place wash over him like
a nauseating sickness.
No, he will not sit down. He has sharpened into an obstinate
presence, the other, offered as an offence to this mass of
self-absorbed supremacy that is fifty-five grams short of justice.
Dean Samuel Johnson has replaced the chaplain at the lectern.
“Mr. Roydal, you are creating an intolerable disturbance. If you
don’t take a seat, we will have you removed from the chapel.”
“Sit down, jerk,” someone yells from the balcony.
“Jerk,” echoes from the sophomore section.
“You know he kisses photographs,” a voice calls from a clot of
seniors.
“He smooches a picture, the pervert,” another voice yells.
“Pervert,” is called out again and is taken up as a chant, “per
vert, per vert, per vert! And there is laughter and the stamping of
feet in rhythm with the chant, “per vert, per vert.”
Dean Johnson’s arms are raised in an attempt to quiet the students.
He is useless. The noise of laughter, shouting, and the chant of per
vert have all joined in a rhythmic crescendo of sound. In
accompaniment, a student has taken over the organ and is pounding
out a cord in support of the chant: thrum dum, thrum dum, thrum dum.
Thurmond does not move. He is amazed, confused, and frightened.
The first missile is an eraser. It strikes Thurmond on the shoulder
and a cheer goes up from the students. Next is a wad of paper that
misses and almost strikes a faculty member. An
involuntary oooh and then
laughter break the chant. Now there is a shower of debris launched
at Thurmond: erasers, pencils, Jujubes, gumdrops, and wads of paper.
He doesn’t move and doesn’t try to shield his face.
The noise drops instantly when two local policemen enter the
sanctuary. The dean is back in control now. He nods and the officers
separate and walk down the two center aisles. They clear the pew of
students where Thurmond is standing, and one on either side, take
him by the arms. “Escort Mr. Roydal to my office please, gentlemen.”
Then addressing the students and faculty, “I believe that will be
quite enough now. Go to class please.”
*
The officers escort Thurmond out of the auditorium. They are
followed by the students then the faculty. “Isn’t he a student of
yours, John,” a colleague says as he passes Ballack who is still
sitting.
“Yes,” John Ballack says . “It’s unfortunate, isn’t it… he appears
to be quite an unstable young man.”
“We do get a few, don’t we…? Are you coming, John?”
“In a moment,” he says.
John Ballack was horrified to watch his prize student systematically
destroy himself. Now Ballack is also frightened. He knows he is
identified with the boy. He has spoken affectionately about him,
argued for a little forbearance concerning his eccentricity, and
touted, to the annoyance of his colleagues Thurmond’s facility with
Latin. The faculty
members to whom he has confided tell John Ballack that they are
witness to no academic merit in Thurmond Roydal. They suspect also a
lack of religious grounding and a certain contempt for Southern
ways. These traits they
tended to excuse, however, because after all he
is from New Jersey, so
wouldn’t you know. What they can not excuse, is that the boy does
not seem to understand that it is a privilege to be on this campus,
an honor to have been chosen to study at Price College. John Ballack
knows that this stunt in the chapel marks the end for Thurmond
Roydal; his mental instability now confirmed for all his detractors.
Instead of following the faculty out of the chapel, John Ballack
remains in his pew. The great gray stone, the grand menhir polished
to a high sheen, impressive in his passive immensity is shaken to
his foundation. Only the silver hair slicked back, the three piece
dark suit with its pocket handkerchief and the hard immobile
features of the great stone face hide the pile of rubble that was
once Ballack’s unassailable wall of confidence.
When he leaves the chapel John Ballack does not go to his class. He
decides the students will quickly get the idea he’s not coming. What
is it, ten minutes they have to wait? It is the first class he has
ever intentionally missed. “Das
ist mir scheißegal,”
he mutters and avoiding the brick walkway he crosses on the
bare earth to the dorm facing the side of the chapel and lets
himself into Thurmond Roydal’s room. Seated on the small bed which
is now weighted to an impressive sag, Ballack reaches for the framed
photograph on the dresser. He frowns at the smudge marks on the
glass, looks at the eyes that stare past him into the void. Now John
Ballack understands. It is certainly a publicity photograph but it
has captured the essence of loneliness, a deep emptiness in the
midst of fawning care. This woman is a captive not of her art, but
of her handlers. She is not an object of erotic fantasy or even of
maternal love. She is an affirmation of something deeper. It is the
will to endure that he sees…yes, that’s it, the will to endure
against all odds. And John
Bollack feels the shame of his own lack of courage.
The door opens as Ballack studies the photograph now resting in his
lap. From his expression it is clear Thurmond Roydal is surprised to
see the great stone face in his room, his immensity crushing his
bed. He is more surprised to see Ballack analyzing the portrait of
Gertrude Lawrence. Ballack raises the picture, flashes it toward
Roydal then places it back on the dresser. “Well?” he says.
“Nothing,” Thurmond says. “There’ll be a disciplinary hearing at
three o’clock in the dean’s office.”
“Do you know who’ll be there?”
“Dean Johnson, President Thorndike, and Dr. Pritchard.”
Thorny dick and Bitch hard the religious prig, Ballack thinks.
Jesus, what is happening to him.
“They’re going to dismiss you, you know. Send you home,”
Ballack says.
“I believe so,” Thurmond says.
“Doesn’t that bother you? What possessed you, Mr. Roydal?” John
Ballack is standing now and Thurmond has taken off his coat and
thrown it on the bed. They face each other across the small room
that has witnessed the troubles of young men for over a hundred and
twenty years. The room
is indifferent to their drama and offers nothing but the perspective
of time.
“What possessed me,” Thurmond says. “Certainly I thought you would
know…you could see… “ Thurmond is pacing back and forth now, looking
at John Ballack. “All these years you’ve held the balance in your
hands knowing the hypocrisy, the injustice. Christ, of all people
you should understand.”
“Of course I understand…”John Ballack moves around Thurmond
to the door. “You raised the curtain, didn’t you; did the righteous
deed. A small gesture to trouble the social order.
How noble you are, Mr. Roydal.”
“I am no Amos, Dr. Ballack, to call down justice from the heavens.
I’m just the worm in the beam that exposes the rotten wood, that’s
all. And the social
order—look around you, the social order is already boiling far more
than you can imagine.”
“Yes, yes…we shall see. I’m going to the dean now, Mr. Roydal, but
you know I can’t save you.”
Thurmond sits at his desk and takes the photograph from his
dresser. He sets it on a book resting to one side of the desk, turns
in his chair to face the great stone menhir glistening by the door,
“Nor I you, Dr. Ballack,” he says.
*
John Ballack knows what to expect from Dr. Johnson, but the rebuke
is none the less demeaning and humiliating. How did Dr. Ballack dare
represent that boy as anything but mentally incompetent. The mere
insinuation that he should be placed on probation and given another
chance is an affront to common decency and everything Price College
stands for. “In the best light,” the dean said, “that simpleton
mocked the authority of the college and trampled on the honor of
studying at this institution. No, he will be told at three o’clock
that he is dismissed and must vacate the premises before six o’clock
tomorrow morning. The Grayhound bus stops at LongJohn’s café at
eleven this evening and he should be on it. Any of his possessions
he cannot carry with him shall be placed in a trunk which we will
ship to him post haste. And you, John, if I were you I would be
careful of the students I befriend in the future. A little more
discretion would be advised.”
Discretion indeed. For
a moment the great Latin scholar is amused. What does that
self-righteous bastard Johnson know of discretion. His whole life is
defined by caution. Mr. Roydal, Mr. Roydal, that worm in the wood is
right—the time for accommodation is past.
Damn you Mr. Roydal! And John Ballack feels that he is
standing on the edge of a great abyss.
*
Thurmond is gone the next morning when John Ballack enters his eight
o’clock class. The desk in the back of the room that had held his
lanky presence is empty of substance and intellect. The void that
Ballack feels in the room now is like death. Death now sitting in
Thurmond’s empty seat mocking him.
Behind his desk, watching death cross his legs and flash an
indifferent smirk, John Ballack is listening to a student struggle
through Tacitus’ “Annals.” “Please, Mr. Roberts, he says,
abutebaris
modo subjunctivo denuo.”
“Sir?” Jordan Roberts says.
“I said you’re fucking up
the subjunctive again, Mr. Roberts…. Please,
it’s a cold day, dig those spurs in and get that pony moving a
little better before we all stiffen up from catatonic boredom.
Jesus Christus, we should
be reading Catullus’ poems today. That would liven this dreary
morning, keep us awake now, wouldn’t it….” Ballack stands, raises
his hands in frustration, “Bugger you,” he says to the specter at
Thurmond’s desk. “Class dismissed.”
John Ballack cancels his second period class as well and
retreats to his office. As he enters, he immediately notices a
framed photograph on his desk. It is a black and white publicity
photograph of Gertrude Lawrence. In fact it is
the photograph of
Gertrude Lawrence Thurmond Roydal had in his room. Ballack sits at
his desk and lifts the picture. He turns it over and on the back the
word Mother has been expanded to read, “The Mother of us all.” A
little below, also in Thurmond Roydal’s hand is written: “Illegitimi
non carborundom, they are all fifty-five grams short of
justice.” The great stone face smiles at the cliché in Latin, “Okay,
so don’t let the bastards grind you down,” he says and places the
picture back on his desk.
*
Wednesday, December 18 offers a beautiful cold morning and as the
students and faculty file into the chapel for services all are giddy
with the prospect of Christmas vacation.
The stage-set in the sanctuary has not changed. The lectern
is in its place and the deadly purple-blue monkshood observes the
inflow of white faces from its pedestal against the black curtain.
Summers takes his place behind the lectern and offers the
invocation. With everyone standing, the congregation sings “Oh come,
oh come, Emmanuel and ransom captive Israel.” Following the hymn, as
is his custom, Summers turns to the scripture. “Keeping with the
season of Advent,” he says, “let us read Isaiah and the great
foretelling of the coming of Jesus Christ.
Behold my servant, he
reads, whom I uphold; mine
elect, in whom my soul delighteth:… A small wave of laughter
breaks across the sanctuary and Summers looks up. In front of him,
in the first row of faculty pews Johann Wolfgang Ballack is still
standing. He glances up at Summers then turns to face his colleagues
and students. Carefully and deliberately he crosses his arms on his
great paunch. The majestic polished menhir is looking his best. A
dark-blue three-piece suit with a bloodred tie accents the majesty
of his great size. A matching handkerchief is showing purpose in his
breast pocket. His silver hair is slicked back and his face is gray
and regal. He is an imposing figure. No one moves, neither faculty
nor students. Summers
is rooted at his podium. The air is crackling and the sanctuary is
tense with anticipation.
Seated next to John Ballack is Alex Collingwood from the English
Department. He tugs at the hem of Ballack’s coat and whispers,
“John, what are you doing? What
is this?”
“What is this?” Ballack repeats staring out at the expanse of
anonymous white faces. “This is a kiss,” he says. “Yes… this is a
kiss for Gertrude.”
The first missile to strike John Ballack is a harmless wad of paper.
It bounces off his shoulder and drops to the floor. The second is an
eraser. It strikes Ballack in the face and leaves an ugly red welt.
There is a moment of stunned silence, then, a delirious scream of
delight explodes from the congregation and they are on him.